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> Tuesday, October 19, 2004
8:22 PM

haiz...2dae so sux, got bac exam results, almos died of shock.moi eng so damn bad, jus pass by 4 marks, i almos cried cos eng use 2 b very good but now...anywaz, got bac maths n quite ok larz den got bac sci, quite good oso, my mcq top da class.home-econs i top da class i tink, got 95 but haiz get so high but if eng fail got wat use?geog sux man, lit i manage 2 pass la, thank god cos i nv finish.chinese oso not bad, n 4 cme i write crap but manage 2 get good marks la.dunno y leh but i more happi bout moi sci den home-econs, still prayin 2 get into triple-sci class in sec3.haiz, overall i not too happi wif moi results but wat's done is done liao.got another shock 2dae, janelle told me dat wenqi was veli angry wif me yesterdae 4 not takin da stands n oso 4 not blowin onstage.haiz...feel kinda sad lorz dat moi senior hate me n spent da whole dae tinkin how 2 apologize 2 her.actually da reason i nv take stands is cos i alreadi takin files liao n hav no hands 2 take animore stuff.should hav guess dat she was angry wif me yesterdae when phyllis n deb tok 2 me bout da files n not blowin but i so stoopit.tot bout it da whole dae but in da end nv apologize, so shall say it here larz.erhmmm...wenqi i m srry 4 not takin da stands n 4 not blowin onstage, hope u not angry wif me liaoz.i noe dat dere is veli little chance she will c dis but anywaz srry.k actualli i wanted 2 say 2 her personally but i dunno how 2 kai kou when dere iz so much ppl round her.veli da nervous bout sat's performance leh, i still can't play it properly, scared will mess up da whole song.haiz...i so lonely.2dae i saw melissa n huiru, so said hi 2 dem but dey pretend not 2 c me.fine, so much 4 bein frenly n still get ignored.2dae band prac deb made me stand up n play hahahahazz den ask me 2 clap timing, tink i clapped inconsistent, suddenly fast den slow but i onli junior wat.saw melissa strugglin wif her tuba, she looked so da sad n pathetic, haiz can't blame her lahz.sigh...sumtimes i feel so outcast in band lyk every1 ignores me cos i can't play n since i m da onli junior, dere's no 1 2 tok 2, so borin...i try 2 b frenly yes but still feel lyk got 1 barrier between me n these ppl.try 2 tok 2 da tuba juniors but dey c me onli dey quickly turned away, i look veli fierce meh?haiz...wateva, los rachel's othello thingy, how ah?k gtg liaoz baiz...erm...ppl u can tag at moi chatterbox kaex if got anythin 2 say horz.

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